Lately, i've sucked at making decisions. I've just realized that instead of breaking things down and asking for the help I need so that I can move forward on challenges, I've instead gotten stuck believing that even having (what I think are) simple questions, is a character flaw; that I should know this simple thing and am embarrassed that I don't ... As a result, i procrastinate and feel flawed, like my impostor is about to be found out. Ugh. This crap really has slowed me down lately...

My new decision is to move quickly and make a concrete list of the questions I have and the peson I believe can help me, and then to pick up the phone and ASK already!

Do you all relate??!

I've always had difficulty making decisions.  I have a mind-set that tells me that I should be perfect, and when I fail, I see myself as incompetent.  Lately, I have been very hard on myself.  I hear myself saying that, "I hate myself!"  That takes a lot of the joy from my life.  When diagnosed with ADD three years ago, I began Adderall XR 20mg daily, since I couldn't complete my work as a Registered Nurse in an in-patient Hospice Unit.  I'm not sure if it helped with that work, but I had more energy to get things done.  Unfortunately, I began having high blood pressure, psoriasis on my knees and elbows, and began frequently staying awake until 5,6,7 a.m.  I stopped taking it after two yeqrs under the direction of my therapist.      Sincerely,    katiedee